A torture?

I think I m always torturing myself mentally! I always force myself to do thing against my will. Usually is a mental struggle before physically compromise.

I really miss home very much and I can always get a air ticket and leave! I wonder what is holding me back. There is nothing here that really hold me back, well except for a practical reason $$$$$$$....

I m forcing myself to stay on till I have enough to survive when I m head back home.

I never know I m so 念家的人!